Regaining Control

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I'm taking a break from the series to break up some of the monotony. After all, that's what this post is about, anyway.

Over the past few weeks, my life has been completely dictated by school. To the point that I rarely have a moment where I'm not stressing out about it. There's always homework to do and every time the new week begins, I'm technically behind already.

So what to do about it?

I realized earlier today that I'm not forced to do what I do. If I miss an assignment or don't get the grade I want, the world will spin on. If I don't do an assignment or miss one, I simply have to accept that it will effect my grade.

And move on.

You see, because I now realize that I am not forced to do this. I have a choice. Do it or don't do it. Of course, I'm going to do the assignments because I actually care about my future and will someday transfer to a university and I must keep my grades up for that to happen. However, it's the thought that I have a choice that makes me feel more in control.

This is the thought that matters because for the past few weeks, things have felt like they were getting out of control. Now, life is slowly getting back together. I'm regaining control.

It's great that I've had this realization not and not later in the year, when I know things are only going to get more hectic. Hopefully, this will take some of the stress out of next semester. Whatever happens next semester, I'm sure I'll figure out how to make the best of it.

Somehow.

It's what I do.

And as Yoda once said, "Do or do not. There is no try."

Until next time, lovelies, peace.

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